A River Of Time

This story involves direct knowledge, fate, trust and a few other things I've written about in these articles. I wonder what you will think of it. From being about 9 years old, I would get a picture, a vision, an impression of a man strong, light-hearted, safe, secure in himself. Remember, this is through the mind's eye of a child. And the number 54 would present itself to me. I saw a garden, a warm woman, happiness. This vision kept me going through some hard and frightening times. I grew to feel quite connected to this man. Even though he didn't seem aware of me.

The vision would change a little as to scenery, always holding true to the theme, though. As I grew into my 20's, this vision kept coming back to me at difficult times, and I'd hold to it as a mantra, a mandala of future possibility. I couldn't see how, though. Must be a foolish dream that hung around from childhood, I thought. After I was introduced to metaphysics, I began to learn that this was a precognitive vision of myself in those years to come.

When I got serious about walking a path with heart I discovered my precious, inner child. Scared out of his wits, believing nonsensical rubbish about himself and his place in the world. It took a while to establish a working dialogue with my inner child, to sort out what went where. He wasn't a very trusting little soul. He didn't trust himself. So we, he and I, decided we could trust that he didn't trust, while I did. So we picked one thing I as a big person trust on the outside, and we used it to teach my inner child what trust on the inside feels like. That was the beginning of major transformation.

This year I am 53 (2000). According to the wisdom of Numerology, I am in the last year of a long cycle of working stuff through. So at age 54 a new cycle of inner fulfillment begins. At 9 years old I knew only that tomorrow would be as crazy at home as today had been.
The vision is coming true. It does pay to trust, to hold to your dreams, to follow your heart and to trust in spirit.

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